new neocities, will i work on it? no, burps. anyways, lots to talk about. lately ive been having doubts about myself and that usually never happens, i feel as if im becoming the worse version of myself. a year ago, i wouldnt have even thought about the things im doing now. its awful.

anyways i feel like ive just given up on myself as of lately. i cant bring myself to talk to many people anymore. i talk to what, 5 really close people? and even then i can hardly bring myself to reply. ive been bed ridden for days and my heads been hurting all day.

ive been looping i want you to love me by fiona apple for the last two days. theres something so mesmerizing about her voice. i cant stop listening to it lol. this is the first fiona apple song ive listened to so imagine how hypnotized im going to be with her other songs.

i have so much to talk about but i forgot it all.

chat box. send me a slur or a love confession.

hi chat. today was a good day. really good day. i did not have any bad thoughts. i also went completely broke. anyways HI NIKI!!! HI MILLER!!! muahahaha. i think today marks the day im finally over some fella that hurt me bad. i thought it would take me months but now i just feel pity you know? i dont feel like nothing was my faulf.

anyways. time to study lol.

hi chat. burpsss. ive been really interested in him lately. i think if he actually got help for some of his issues he wouldnt have done what he did. he had serious mental issues and racist ideology got in his head. then theres the confession he made to police that he "almost didn't go through with it because everyone was so nice to him,". thats so??? i dont know. im interested on how his mind works.

HI NIKI!!! I KNOW U READ THIS HIIIII!!!
literally us. not in a gay way. FUCK. im not lesbian ermmmm i would be for you tho niki.sctually no. no i wouldnt. i think about this message a lot. HELPPP. its not even that fucking funny. me and niki talking about the same drama from years ago (its usually us just talking about how we used to hate each other) HI NIKI!!!

me

Find your dreams come true And I wonder if you know What it means, what it means

And I wonder if you know What it means, what it means And I wonder if you know What it means to find your dreams

I've been waitin' on this my whole life These dreams be wakin' me up at night You say I think I'm never wrong You know what, maybe you're right, aight?

And I wonder if you know What it means, what it means And I wonder if you know What it means to find your dreams

You say he get on your fuckin' nerves You hope that he get what he deserves, word

Do you even remember what the issue is? You just tryin' to find where the tissue is You can still be who you wish you is It ain't happen yet and that's what the intuition is

When you hop back in the car, drive back to the crib Run back to they arms The smokescreens, the chokes and the screams You ever wonder what it all really mean

And I wonder if you know What it means, what it means And I wonder if you know What it means to find your dreams

And I'm back on my grind A psychic read my lifeline Told me in my lifetime My name would help light up the Chicago skyline

And that's what I'm Seven o'clock, that's prime time Heaven'll watch, God callin' from the hotlines Why He keep givin' me hotlines? I'm a star, how could I not shine?

How many ladies in the house? How many ladies in the house without a spouse? Somethin' in your blouse got me feelin' so aroused

What you about on that independent shit Trade it all for a husband and some kids You ever wonder what it all really mean You wonder if you'll ever find your dreams

hi niki. this is so us.

to the 5 people that know the secret section to this neocities i love yall. you is my gang. i need to stop getting jealous. jealousy is stupid. very stupid.
true indication by soltero amazing song. very good song. very good album. LMAO, anyways. things to talk about. uhmm

things bothering guadalupe
1. my constant headaches
2. my informative speech
3. only having 11 dollars
4. having to turn down a summer job
5. my ex??? ex situationship?? ex bestfriend?? homoerotic friendship ex??
6. most people

the constant headaches are fucking with me, i gotta take like 6 tylenol a day to get through my days. not cool. i wake up, head hurt, sleep. my informative speech is going well but now i need to rewrite it to fit in 10 minutes. i need money. burps. maybe. i want more cigs. had to turn down a summer job cause, well. anyways. my ex always bothers me. i havent had it in me to talk to some people in my life. i know its just my conditions but i feel bad but when i try to talk some people i just puke. im scared ill become like my uncle or grandma. or even worse; and i look just like the both. am i cooked??

☀️☀️☀️ oooo let the light in

hi yumi, hi niki, hi ham lover, hi kenny, hi miller. i love kanye (i only listen to his hit songs) kanyeee. i love kendrick tho, love kendrick a lot. kendrick please drop again. please drake make another diss on kendrick so he can drop again

love letters for gang (if ur not on here and think ur supposed to be on here please dm me... i dont know if im close witht some of yall to just add yall here... and some things between us are too private and yeah) uhmmm ask if u wanna be removed!!!

NIKI!!!! HIIII i love u so much. i cant believe weve been friends for like ever. i rememver when i hated u for some random reason im so glad were besties. i lowkey still hate u but whatever. ur so mean to me for no reason but its okay i still love u. this is so abusive, dont hurt me pleaseee.

SCAR!!!! HI HI HI!!!! my best best best friend ur always thefe when i need u and i cant believe ur going to college and ur so smart and im not gonna see u anymore im so sad. no more hanging out during final weeks or going to the mall... or hanging out in parking lots or just anything. im gonna miss u so so so much. i love u so so much. ur my best best friend pleaseee visit me. also thabks for like always being on my side when i need someone to defend me ur so much to me i dont know what i would do without u....

TERAAAA!!! HI TERA I HAVE NO IDEA IF U READ THIS BUT HELLO!!! i admire u so much ur so collected and ur such a positive figure in my life and i dont know what i would do without u. ur my bestest best best friend and ur so cool and i know ur gonna achive so many great things cause ur so smart in my eyes and hopefully in everyones eyes. ur so cool!!! HI TERAAA!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

Hi miller... Hi yumi... I dont like remember the site i met yall from. thats so embarrasing anbys BYEEEE. IM DONEE. i rmember when i hated both of yall. ESPECIALLY U MILLER. u guys are so cool tho... maybe not u yumi. sometimes u make me really really mad but ur always there to troll with me when im pissed at someone. ur amazeballs both of yall. yall are like those side characters in my life that do sometjing crazy that affects my whole storyline and disapear only to do somethinf crazy again. i love yall, yall are so fun to talk to. im glad were still friends even when we dont talk. its like the time away from each oyher doesnt affect out relationships, yall two understand me better than some people and im so grayefull for that, very very cool.

HI TJ... my sugar mommy... thanks fo always apple paying me mommy.... ur so funny to talk to. i always giggle when talking to u, u fr match my freak gang. ur the freakylarry to my freakybob. me and u locked in twin. thanks for eveyrhong i love u so so much (im not gonna kill myself) thanks gang. i dont know what else to except thanks!!!!! UR AMAAZING!!!!

HI SID. I LOVE U. SO MUCH. ur my little hamster!!

loredena, its easy lyrics by soltero cause i cant find them online and im typing them myself

hard day nights, easy (?)
to think about you
but i wait for the day
when the thinking is through

[CHORUS]
but we both never know what to say
is it only the good ones?
get away

its obvious that i didn't know
the type of fix i was in
till you sang me a song (?)
on my own violin (?)

i wish only the best for you
it should be easy to see
that the best for you
could only be me

[CHORUS]
but we both never know what to say
is it only the good ones?
get away

we've been waiting for the summer
we've been talking with each other
we've been talking through the winter
we've been waiting on each other

hi niki. this is so us. x2 HI NIKI!!! if no one has my back i know absolutely that niki has it...... anyways

amazing, new section. if you have access to that. hi..... hi chat. if we're close and u dont have access to it dm me skibidi.

nevermind... section

opened to everyone. i like people knowing my thoughts.

HI TERA!! new topic. lots of people know lots of me because allow myself to be known. all my friends can tell you which song is my favorite and all have different answers but each answer will be the right one. i love opening up to people knowing that im not opening up to them cause im searching for romance out of them but just pure friendship. everyone has a different piece of me. i love when people know things about me, im confusing and im okay with that. tons of people can say they know everything about me but theres so many layers to me that when you peel off the wallpaper theres a new colorful one. i love my friends, and i love not having the same type friendships with all of them. i talk to some of them everyday, i talk to some once a week and i talk to some every blue moon. but i know that even tho we might not have the best communication we'll always be friends cause u fit my puzzle piece. i enjoy that about myself. i wouldnt trade that for anything.

i miss my wife. and myy wife so violent perfect and right. how lucky i am. my wife a tyrant. lucky i am. my life is no longer mine.lucky i am.

shoutout niki my lesbian wife hi niki